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Feb. 5th, 2006 | 03:48 am

I think I finally realized whats up.

I care a lot for a few boys... including my dear valentine. But I think I really love a man. And I know he loves me.

Slowly as ever, this man has become one of my best friends, even when i was being stubborn to him, denying his friendship for the sake of my friend's feelings. But now, He's one of the most amazing men I've ever met in my life. And I do realize that i care deeply for him.

Its one of those things

Half of the men i meet and care for, I get jealousy over... and those are the ones I can NEVER be with (the rockstars I generally go for. Geoff, Scott Dugdale, Damien Haze)

But then the other half I dont get jealous over, and I make myself proud at those moments. And this man... Gosh.

Hes an amazing guy, a sweetheart. We spent 6 hours one night just hanging out and talking. I know so much about him, and hes so nice. He says he cant be sarcastic with me.

I can only find 2 downfalls

=1 hes got a girlfriend- but MAY be over soon. He promised me the other day that if something happened, he would do anything in his power to be with me

=2= not really a downfall, but hes in a band. A GOOD band. And all the ladies want him lol

Ok... im done. I WILL NOT tell a soul who it is. But I love him the same regardless.

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POLITICAL RANT

Jan. 30th, 2006 | 08:46 am

someone needs to fuckin explain to me how president bush can even address the state of the union with was is being said as an 'upbeat and positive' message.

He has done no good. Taken too many jobs, started too many wars, and done so many crutial and meaningless things to fuck up our country a little more. Thank you george effing bush for raising MY taxes. because the 200 i make a fuckin week is TOO fuckin much that you have to lower it to 150. YOU FUCKIN SUCK

And how about gas. 2.34 is NOT cool. Whatever happened to the 1.27 we had when I fuckin graduated. THAT was fuckin nice. Does anyone else remember gas being UNDER a dollar?

For someone that uses 2 tanks of gas a week and has to drive 45 mins to and from work every day... and back to louisville on the fuckin weekends. gas being that high fuckin sucks.

Oh... what about our so called privacy? We dont HAVE ANY! Thank you for passing a bill saying that you can read our emails, record our phone calls and pretty much do anything you fuckin want to, just because you are who the fuck you are. Kiss my ass.

as my friend put it the other day, our economy never has more/less money. Its always relatively the same. Its just those in power who decide how to use that money. And let me just say... the way he uses it fuckin sucks. Why the hell do we need to send so much money to places we demolished and tore apart... when we cant even fix our own country.

its about time for a democrat. And I am in no way bias to democracy. I just know that democrats are selfish bastards who use our money for OUR country.

a big thank you to surviving thalia for encouraging people to think for yourselves... and laying out the truth as is. FUCK what you hear, do your own fuckin reasearch. As for me, I refuse to. I've read enough to get pissed off. If I read anymore.. I'm liable to kill someone.

Thank you... end soap box discussion.

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Jan. 27th, 2006 | 06:43 am

Sunday, Feb 12

My birthday

geoff, Kat, Kimmie, josh, whoever.

Cafe 360.

I miss you guys
<3

Geoff, Kat... let me know asap. I gotta get bday plans done.

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Jan. 26th, 2006 | 10:13 pm

B e my Valentine: What does that mean?
E ach of us must walk through life alone,
M ore deeply desolate than we have known,
Y earning for a truth we've never seen.
V alentines are from beyond that dream,
A re like a sunrise on a world of stone.
L ittle on this journey can we own
E xcept as miracles might intervene.
N o way but through loving might we give
T he freedom of our being to another.
I n such a sacrifice we hope to live
N o longer bound by dreams of flesh and bone,
E ven as we bind our lives together.

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Jan. 24th, 2006 | 10:28 pm

OMFG!

Subrosa...
Exeventu (Mike Ping's band)
Prey For Maria

Bulldog Feb 10
these bands are fuckin amazing!

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Jan. 23rd, 2006 | 06:25 am

This weekend has been a surreal blur.

meeting some dudes I've wanted to meet for a while... and them being a lot cooler than I thought. Now, I'm full fledge in support for their band... going to recording with them

Met a loser boy

Made out with Mandi and Damien.

Dismissing a band.

Amazing shows. Great friends.

As for this weekend.

Subrosa show Friday at Bulldog

7 Day Sun.Surviving Thalia show on saturday

Tell me that isn't Ashley and Cori's favorite! their favorite bands! <3 Love you girls

www.myspace.com/subrosarocks

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Jan. 18th, 2006 | 07:31 am

If I'm so fuckin sweet, nice and hot. Why the hell can't i get a guy thats worth a damn.

How bout a guy period? lol

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Jan. 14th, 2006 | 09:48 am

All American Rejects, Fall out Boy, Hawthorne Heights, first to last

I WANNA FUCKIN GO

Dayton ohio
hara arena
april 23
tickets are like 24 bucks.

AHHHHHHHHH!

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Dec. 26th, 2005 | 01:18 pm

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.
Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time.

Your flirting style: Coy

Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park

Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant

What you bring to relationships: Romance



Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

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Dec. 25th, 2005 | 09:51 pm

Appearance

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.


School/Work

[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor´s office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.


Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x ] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn´t have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't like them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I ran a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm/Was anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on eBay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie

Political/Social Attitudes

[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[x] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm religious.

Random

[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest.

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